the healing fields – equinox psalm
how does healing happen?
is it…forgetting a little at a time that which hurts
and waking up one morning just feeling a little bit lighter
is it…finally forgiving yourself and the world
by understanding, somehow, we are all wounded with you
is it…realizing that the world is whole after all or accepting
that the world is broken open and has need of your love
is it…noticing a whole day, week or month has gone by
without beating yourself up in the old ways that have held you back
is it…being struck by a compassion so tender that you know it must
belong to the Beloved since you don’t recognize this kindness in you
is it…realizing that this is just how it is right now and somehow that
it is oddly, unreasonably, not personal, or about you at all
this is our human story that we are creating together
can we get ‘free enough’ to create in it, with true personal intention?
is it… not letting your wounded songs hold you back
from that which sings to you from your deepest soul cave
is it…allowing shadow-work and light-work to co-exist without
striving for either one to be greater or better or good or bad
is it…being willing to lean into your resistances until
the edge of your hardened places creates tender spaces
is it…being willing to surrender your cynicism and complacency even
when you know the ridiculousness of the harming going on
is it…opening your heart, yes again and wider still, to a new face
a new heart, yes, a new chance even in the same old life
is it…letting go of making the hard things into stories of meaning
about why it went down this way or that, what if there is no real reason
is it…surrendering enough to allow old patterns to dissolve, even
when they have served you so very well, or so you thought
what if nothing is as you thought it would be or have believed?
it might be something even better, I don’t know, but maybe…
each one of these stories we have talked about here
are ‘fields’ of energy that live within us, we all know this to be so
will you approach the edge of your cave and just wave as I walk by
beckoning you, or will you join us in the healing fields of wild flowers
lay down the burden of what you thought you knew and just come
and open with us to your part in the unfolding mystery
when you are too laden with all the stories of yesterday
it is too crowded to gather your harvest into your arms
don’t worry, everything has become compost and is useful to you
these old stories become legend in no time, if we let them
everything happens in cycles, this may have been a longer one
than you felt your could survive, but you did! yes, you did.
I have come for you, take my hand now and rise up
the others are waiting for us to take our place in the circle
I have no idea what will happen
but I imagine it will be better than you think
your harvest is happening now, even if you don’t see it
just come. we have been calling your name. you’ll see
this kind of healing looks different than we thought
we had hoped for a total recovery and peace on earth
instead we have been sent to learn each other’s stories whole
the healed story begins with this dance, yes, this one.
we will start this dance with giving thanks for the bounty
and raising our hands in Praise for the life-giving Beloved
We have arrived in the healing fields
and we will nourish and be nourished here
Shiloh Sophia